As a system we love dinosaurs, and the stegosaurus is our favourite. One of our friends, of our system drew us a Dinosaur!
The stegosaurus of Dissociative Identity Disorder, we love this dinosaur SO much! We thought it was worth sharing with you all.
-Galena (Host)
01.Feb.21
We are the Silent Ones
The Ones that do not Speak
The Ones that watch and observe
The Ones that have no need to say a Word
We are the Silent Ones
The Ones that do not Speak
The Ones that Protect
The Ones that have no need to say anything.
We are the Silent Ones
The Ones that do not Speak
The Ones that watch and observe
The Ones that Protect
-Fortitude (Protector)
27.Dec.19
It has come to the attention, of myself and that of other alters, that we have been shown in popular culture. It can be said that certain scenes in movies, for example The Matrix, one of the Pirates of the Caribbean and characters in Star Trek, are a representative of sorts, of those who have alters. It is those two movies that I am going to talk about.
First let us take The Matrix. In this movie, there is a character called Agent Smith (aka Smith). This character is shown as multiple beings of themselves. This aside, The Matrix, the what I, what we, believe to be the ethos of the movie, says Dissociative Identity Disorder. Let me explain. In The Matrix, the ethos of it, we believe, is that of one mind. The Hive Mind. With those being in The Matrix, those locked in it, being kept alive. All striving towards the one goal. Agent Smith, we believe is key to this role, they keep the momentum of The Matrix under control, as it were. That is what, in some respects, what our roles are like. I, we, those of our system, each have our own roles, but we strive towards a common goal.
Next, I want to talk about Pirates of The Caribbean: At World's End. There is a bit in the movie, that repeats itself quite often. The character Capt. Jack Sparrow sees multiple versions of himself. Each one is different, some have a different appearance. They interact with each other and with them. This, I, we believe is an example of alters. How they interact with each other, is how, I, we interact with each other. It is how interacts with us all.
Finally, I want to talk about Star Trek. We have recently watched some episodes that contain characters called The Borg. To myself, and other alters, this also says Dissociative Identity Disorder. The Borg, although all different, all work towards the same goal (similar to what I said above about The Matrix). But unlike The Matrix, we, are like The Borg. We are like them in the way that way protect Galena. That is our main... objective? Also when new alters appear, or stop being dormant, an alter, or two will talk to them, to help them adjust. It can be a long process, but this varies. This too can be said, that it is similar to The Borg's assimilation process.
I, we, wouldn't think that the above is something who doesn't have this condition would notice. It is interesting how Mental Health issues creep into popular culture, often without being noticed.
-Tallaght (Support)
27.Dec.21
Although Dissociative Identity Disorder is known for being one of the more complex mechanisms that the brain creates, for us who are part of it it is not complex. It is how things have always been and how they continue to be. To put it simply, it is what it is.
In Galena's Dissociative Identity Disorder mechanism, we are many. Hence the title of this post. Incidentally, it is part of one of our favourite quotes. We all are our own identity. Yet we are also part of our system.
Myself and others, we form an intricate support network for them. Situations are constantly monitored, if I, if we, feel that our Host needs extra support, it is given. This can be anything from talking to them, to completely taking over and everything in between.
- Killian (Support)
27.Dec.19
Recently I started listening to a band again. And the song lyrics spoke to me. Spoke to how the alters are with me. How they have always been with me, being a protective and calming influence on me.
The song in question is:
Bleed For Me, by Black Label Society.
Bleed for me, I've bled for you
Embrace me, child, I'll see you through
Bleed for me, I've bled for you
Embrace me, child, I'll see you through
I'll see you
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It spoke to me, because I have an early memory as a young child of an alter coming to my aid. And their words were very similar to the lyrics of the above song.
-Galena (Host)
27.Dec.19
I got my formal dx (diagnosis) of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) in mid October 2019. As well as this diagnosis I was also diagnosed with C-PTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), and a Non Specific Social Anxiety Disorder.
Things have changed for me and the alters, but in a positive way. We have become more aware of each other. We are also more open to each other. I think safe to say that the formal dx, gave us all validation.
I am understanding the alters more, they are understanding me more and they are understanding each other more. We are more open with each other which is good.
It is like getting a formal dx, turned on a switch inside. Those that were hidden or quiet to me anyway, have become less hidden and are talking more. Alters that were not keen to come forward, are now coming forward.
This is good, as it is creating a harmony for us all. Things are also changing on the inside, but it's good. They are good changes, changes that will benefit all of us.
I feel a lot more confident in me, in who I am. I feel more relaxed in me, if that makes sense?
Sometimes living with Dissociative Identity Disorder is difficult, to say the least. But... but when I was diagnosed and it was explained to me what it was, suddenly everything made sense. The best way I can describe it is like this, before I was a jigsaw puzzle with missing pieces, the diagnosis, inserted those missing pieces and made the jigsaw puzzle complete. In a way made me complete, I know that sounds corny, but, well, it is the best wording I could think of.
I always thought there was something different about me, that I was not like other people. My brain worked differently from others, the thought process was different, EVERYTHING was different. And...yes, then all of a sudden it made sense.
Of course I would be different, of course I would think differently. Dissociative Identity Disorder means this, and SO much more. Alters, when they take over, think differently to me, so this makes sense. They, the alters, are a part of me, and I am a part of them. Yet they are their own identities, in their own right. Yes, I am aware it does sound confusing, but it is confusing. I am, myself, still getting grips with it all.
-Galena (Host)
27.Dec.19